This week I’ve been thinking a lot about prayer. When I try to think back to when I was taught to pray I cannot put my finger on an exact time or experience. Prayer has been apart of my life for as long and I can think back and recall. I recited bedtime prayers, I learned to pray for help and guidance, and I learned all of the proper prayers in church, but often times, little thought was actually given to what I was doing or why. It has become habit, which as many of you who read this might know, this can be good and bad.
The work I have gotten involved in here centers around confidentiality and safety for obvious reasons. Some of the stories the ladies have confided in me sadden my heart and make it heavy. Others are uplifting and full of hope. Either way, I will not share them, because they are not my stories to tell. I will carry them with me and feel blessed that someone wanted to share a part of their life with me. I have not had this outlook this whole time, however. I’ve been struggling with this since I got here and I suspect that I will continue to as my time progresses here. But, this week, after I had dropped a resident off at her destination I was heading back to work and wondering what to do to be of any help while I’m here and whom I can ask for help and I all of a sudden just felt an urging voice say, “tell me”. I immediately began to unload what burdened my heart, out loud, not caring that others were seeing me talking to no one. Doing so caused me to feel an overwhelming presence in the car with me. He was there with me in the car, He is there with me as I go though each day, and He’s here with the women whether they know it or not. I may not always know what to do, but I don’t think that’s important, because God knows why I am here, and I have all the confidence that He will keep me posted.
This week I was reminded that prayer is not something to be memorized or something that must follow a script. There are no rules of when and where to pray. Prayer is personal and intimate. What prayer is changes from moment to moment.
▪ Pray to show praise
▪ Pray to express grief
▪ Pray when burdened
▪ Pray when confused
▪ Pray when you see God’s sense of humor
▪ Pray when feeling joyful
▪ Pray when you feel no one else will listen
Pray Constantly. His will, not my own, be done.